Someone is wondering where I am and where I have been, just as much as I have been wondering where they are and where they have been.

Reciprocate.

Be the person that you want to love.

Be everything and be anything.

Be something, be nothing.

Be everywhere and nowhere.

Be someone and be no one.

Love and be loved.

Hate and be hated.

Lose and be lost.

Hurt and be hurt.

Kill and be killed.

Cry to and cry for.

Smile for nothing, smile for everything

Hear and be heard,

See and be seen.

Sing to and be sang to.

Scream and whisper.

Fight and resolve

Win and lose.

Breathe and suffocate.

Remember and Forget.

Forgive and Regret.

Hold and be held.

Give up and persist.

Jump.

Be open and be closed.

Control and be controlled.

Manipulate.

Observe and be observed.

Love and Lose.

Run and walk.

Dance and don't.

Praise and pray.

Be proud and humble.

Fall and catch.

Sleep and dream.

Awake and doze.

Be all and all for nothing.

Dear eyes of mine,

I wish you saw what we all see...But you are the deadened body member. Without you, we are all in the dark, but we still saw better than you did. I speak for the rest of the entire system.

-The Heart

amazed

I am an object

Haven't seen your face in my mind for a while

Feels different

Haven't called your phone in months now

You never answer

But I'm still singin like you're not dead to me

But you are

And I'm still crying like I really care

But I don't

You promised you were my tower, my knight in shining armor

Mistaken

Held me up while I was falling, picked me up and threw me down, despite it all, I keep you around

But I'm still singin like you're not dead to me

But you are

And I'm still crying like I really care

But I don't

I am an object

I am not whole

I am unwillingly selling my soul just to take back what you stole

I am still filling up and falling down

Waiting for my head to hit the ground

I wont be happy, I wont be sad, I'm just to empty to give a damn

It never happens even though it's true

I'm only everything without you

But I'm still singin like you're not dead to me

But you are

And I'm still crying like I really care

But I don't

I'm just one of those ghosts

Traveling endlessly.

parler dans l'espace

Quand je vais chez moi à ma planète que vous avez à me rendre visite parce que je ne connais personne là-bas.

J'espère vraiment que la planète est belle et que ça me plaît là-bas.

Aussi, désolé, je buvais tous vos alcool et fumé ensemble de vos cocaïne

Lorsque je reviens sur cette planète, je vous apporterai certains médicaments indigènes

They will come for me

Someday...

If I could shoot the stars down I would

But only for you

and Somehow I'd think of an excuse for where they landed

Three years old couldnt tie my shoes

Barely speakin words but singin the blues

Little blue jeans and my plastic pool

Running round in circles and breakin the rules

You read my mind and I read yours

Fought our own battles and won our own wars

and I loved you just the same

I spilled this and you broke that

It never mattered cus I had your back

L I E just lie to me

One Two Three maybe then I'll see

That you werent who I thought you'd be

I don't fall asleep anymore

I gave that up too

How does it feel now that no one comes through?

What is everything when you have nothing left?

Another stranger asleep in your bed.

L I E just lie to me

F R E spells almost free

tired of seeing what I want to see

I'll always love you, not matter what.

The caterpillar

It will become a butterfly.

Angel of the alley way

I never felt the cold bite so hard. I could easily created a blanket of fog, the only heat that existed within miles was resonating from my body. Every time I closed my eyes ten thousand needles penetrated my pupils. I fought as hard as I could to keep them open. I inhaled and sent involuntary shocks down my spine. There was a glimmer in the street and the cobble I was walking on made a scraping sound against my black boots. My hands were kept safe inside my pockets. My body was safe inside my pea coat. It was black outside but that one lonely street light shone has hard as it possibly could. It did not want to let me down. I walked down that despondent alley in hopes that I would possibly find a meaning to my forsaken existence. I just kept walking. To my left lay a man cradling his bottle of Jameson as if it was going to protect him from the evils that roam the world. To my right up ahead there was a mysterious figure, tall in stance, back turned to me. I tried to tip toe up and past this soul who had stirred a fear inside of me. I closed my eyes and held my breath as I came nearer. My fists were adamantly clenched inside my pockets. But my heart grew curious and my lips pursed. I turned my head toward this mysterious someone. Our eyes locked. Just like that. And I felt a jolt of fear, lust excitement and intrigue. His eyes. They were like nothing I had ever seen before. The color of empathy, love, sadness and pain all hidden behind the palest of blues. I stood there for a good 30 seconds studying this character. Each second felt like one thousand years. My eyes took their time. His hair was the color of mahogany, each curl was carefully positioned in all the wrong places. His skin was like porcelain. There was a magnetic force pulling me toward him. I was utterly reveled. Unable to move. He began to meander toward me. My feet became cemented to the cobble ground. I struggled to try to turn and walk the other way. But he out stretched his hand and said; "Hello." In disbelief and curiousity I returned the polite gesture and corresponded by giving him my hand. I do not know if that meeting constituted for falling in love, but I felt a surge jolt throughout my entire body. This stranger sent the warm back into my body. I was in an alley for goodness sake. The most unsafe place to be. Yet, here I was shaking hands with a complete stranger. Someone I had never seen before. But I was safe. I knew it. Every single second added to this situation made me fall more in love with this stranger. I did not even know his name. But I could have sworn he gave something to me. He gave me a reason to feel alive. This was not the last time I would lock eyes with the angel of the alley way.

I really like cats.

haha

before everyone got cameras and became artsy and what not I had a manual Nikon, I carried it around and snapped "abstract" photos.

I'm gonna get back at it...

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PoKeMoN

I spend way too much time at Simone's Donuts.

I cHeCkEd oN mY FiSh

ThEy GrEw

Tonight was fun. I babysat Lucy and Hung out with Em. Now I am going to watch a movie entitled The Ballad of Jack & Rose it is named after a Bob Dylan song. I am curious to see what it is about.

My Dollar Friends

Today I went to the dollar tree and purchased a few little things. ToYs !!! I love toys. So I bought pretty much everything in sight !

This is my rubber bean bag hippo. He's stretchy.

This is my little tomato, when I decide to put him into water, he is going to grow BIG !

This is my teacup ride. When I press the button it plays a song and it has two little dolls in it.

This one is my favorite, it is a mini happy aquarium they are going to grow !!!

This is my disguise....

This is my jumping spider, I had to buy it cus I had one of these when I was little.

This is Thunder Birds it is a puppet movie. So strange.

MaKeUp Is cOoL

So today I decided to do some interesting makeup for no reason. I never wear a lot of eye makeup but today I woke up and decided TODAY IS A MAKEUP DAY !

I'm really good at being ugly by the way...

My blog is all over the place, but I figured I should put up something light hearted so everybody stops thinking this blog is an elongated suicide note.

Today is a day for smiles ! HAVE A DELICIOUS DAY :D

Age

I'm always tired, and I hate teenagers....That means I hate myself? NOOOOO. My generation? Yes.

Past the R in forever

Past the R in forever

is where I'll wait for you

It's my hardest endeavor

But that's how it is with you

You'll ask the answers

and I'll give all the questions

and We'll never mention

that those were our intentions

Through the night

I'll sleep

And the whole day

I'll just waste away

I can hold on as long as there's the R

I'll let go when we've gotten that far

I've never felt something like this

I'm sure that's What I'm gonna miss

Crazy girl you've lost your mind

Don't you understand the reason I left you behind?

You can't expect that I would stay

If I stayed another minute

I would have wasted another day

Look at where I stand

Blank stare

Heart in hand

You could be anywhere

As long as I sit and wait

I gave up on fate

I'll remember if you regret

And I'll forgive if you forget

Never together the R in forever

sleep

I wont sleep tonight

and I'll lie there awake

toss and turn every so often

and return back to neutral

And the moon will travel across the sky

The way you traveled across the sea

Stopping to smile every once in a while

and disappearing on the Horizon

The sun will wake you up

but I'm still lying here awake

blinking and squinting

and we'll rise

The clouds will collaborate

play with the birds and the wind

I'll get up and wonder where you've been

its the lack of sleep, the lack of sleep

I'm sorry

So I made a trip to the medicine cabinet

Shuffled through all of the prescriptions

The bottles were falling into the sink left and right

oh Dammit, I made a mess...

not only don't I know what opiates are

I cant sleep

I just want forty winks

I can't sleep

Just make me sleep, Just let me sleep

I don't care if I never wake up

Why does it matter anyway?

I will never wake up next to you